Superficial, hypocritical bi-atch. If - never told me, I wouldn't have known what you actually thought. Not that I never suspected it. Why am I even surprised? [LINE]
Okay I have decided to take a break from blogging. Recent events have shown that I totally need a break from this thing. I have no idea if it will be permanent, so I cannot guarantee my return. I have no doubt that nobody will miss my blatantly stupid entries. I have no wish to carry on broadcasting my life over the Internet in this manner. I was obsessed with blogging, but I will not be any longer. Hopefully not. Recent issues just proved all the more that I should not be blogging any longer, because I have many thoughts and opinions about matters that have happened, and they are all not very nice. I do believe that they are right though, but people normally prefer to stay enclosed within their limited fabrications of the truth. They won’t enjoy what I have to say, at least no more than I enjoy having to voice it out. If I carry on blogging, I will go seriously crazy. The whole world will probably start getting pissed at me, which I will not blame them for. The worst part is that there are some people out there who take perverse pleasure in trying to control my life. Let me tell you: I have no need for anyone to tell me what I should do, much less dictate my every movement. Rest assured that it is not needed. So now you can leave in peace and go meddle in someone else’s life. They may not mind, but I do. I have freaking turds who think they know more about my life than I do. So what if the onlooker sees the most of the game? I’m the player. Surely I should have an idea of what to do. Just butt out and stay out. Take that, you sick bastards.
Yeah and I never realized that so many people had so much expectations for me. And am I supposed to live up to them all? Everyone seems to have a certain expectation of someone. How they should behave, what they should do, how they should perform. Imagine, if you lived your life living up to the expectations of others, how about your own? I am in an extremely cynical mood now. I think the night has weird effects on me. Crowds bother me. Actually it’s just people in general. It irks me to know how close people can get. I’m not exaggerating. I do not like people getting close to me. Well, most people anyway. Either physically or otherwise. It is just extremely irritating, and I will concentrate very hard on it, until it goes away. It seems that the whole world just collaborated to kick me off the edge of the earth. Thank you. Not. One reason I’m getting away from this thing(at least temporarily) is to stop putting stuff about me up here where it is publicly available to all. From what I have re-learned, not very long ago, is that people cannot be trusted. Nobody can. I admit, maybe not even me. [LINE] [I do not assume. I do not guess. I can only give myself one chance to get it right. Failure is not acceptable. It is not an option.]
[b]Do you remember when you where 7? And the only thing that you wanted to do Was show your mum that you could play the piano [/b] Ten years have passed And the one thing that lasts Is that same old song that we played along and made my mumma cry
I miss those days and I miss those ways When I got lost in fantasies In a cartoon land of mysteries In a place you won't grow old in a place you won't feel cold and I'll sing
Da da da da da da da da da da da da Seems I'm lost in my reflection Da da da da da da da da da da da da Find a star for my direction Da da da da da da da da da da da da For the little girl inside who won't just hide Don't let me see mistakes and lies Let me keep my faith and innocent eyes My innocent eyes
Do you remember when you were 15? And the kids at school called you a fool cos you took the chance to dream In the time that's past and the one thing that lasts Is that same old song that we played along and made my daddy cry
I miss those days and I miss those ways When I got lost in fantasies In a cartoon land of mysteries In a place you won't grow old in a place you wont feel cold and I'll sing
Da da da da da da da da da da da da Seems I'm lost in my reflection Da da da da da da da da da da da da Find a star for my direction Da da da da da da da da da da da da For the little girl inside who wont just hide Don't let me see mistakes and lies Let me keep my faith and innocent eyes My innocent eyes
Under my feeling under my skin Under the thoughts from within Learning the subtext Of the mind See creation how where defined
Da da da da da da da da da da da da Seems I'm lost in my reflection Da da da da da da da da da da da da Find a star for my direction Da da da da da da da da da da da da For the little girl inside who wont just hide Don't let me see mistakes and lies Let me keep my faith and innocent eyes My innocent eyes[LINE] I currently like this song a lot, especially the part in bold. It has a nice tune to it. Yeah and she does have good vocals.[b]In my personal opinion.[/b]
Okay my mood has been dampened after reading somebody’s blog entry. I shall not mention the name of the person, but that entry hit pretty much close to home. I have no intention of letting any of you know more about me than you do now. Call it paranoia, but I don’t care. How much do you know about me? And reversely, how much do I know about you? I think I can safely say I know much more about everyone than you think. It pays to observe. But let’s just keep things at this level. It’s absolutely disgusting to know that there’s somebody who knows so much about you. You might not agree, but this is not about you. You can choose not to trust me. I don’t mind. It’s your life afterall. But people who do, may actually end up on the losing end. Don’t trust somebody you do not know the background of-in other words, a stranger. Your parents have been teaching you that since young haven’t they? Then you think, of the people around you, how many do you know the backgrounds of? You probably don’t know much about mine. So much has been weaved to cover up the original. Other than the basics, don’t believe everything you hear. I am practically a stranger to so many. What you believe is what I choose to make you believe. Does this sound clichéd? You see this kind of entries in a lot of teenagers’ blogs nowadays. Yeah, so you think, she’s just trying to make herself seem pathetic? You know what? Maybe I am. Believe what you want. Maybe I’m some attention seeking pathetic turd. You wouldn’t know, would you? Seriously speaking, other than certain people, I mostly have this very heck-care attitude to a lot of people. A lot of things I would be more than willing to stand on the sidelines to watch with the mere interest of an onlooker. But the responsibilities in life dictate every one of us to take up a role so that we won’t turn into selfish little bastards. Yeah… not many people can actually generate my interest and concern. Very few times, I will actually take the step forward to actually [b]show[/b] the concern. It normally comes as a surprise or even a shock to people, because no matter how I feel about the matter, it’s not usual for me to show care and concern. Very not me indeed. I think this has been long enough. My point is that, No I do not actually trust many people around me, and I do not expect them to trust me at all or even partially.
I felt that sense of irritance again today. It’s happening very often lately. 3 days in a row. It’s definitely not a good sign. It’s not those kind of mild annoyance. Instead, it is one of piled-up anger, which could be triggered by one small incident. That sense of irritance just wells up and I have to cool down myself, and swallow it back before being able to communicate normally again. Otherwise my talking will be in a very unnatural way. I just feel like jumping down someone’s throat and tearing something apart. It will give me the sense of satisfaction that I am currently seeking.
Amelia had her WALA competition. Just for general knowledge, it is an International Competition. I hope she does well in it, and may luck be with her all the way. Yeah and I don’t care what everyone thinks of her or whatever. You are entitled to your own opinion. Only I would appreciate if you keep it to yourself, and don’t voice it to me. Tell the rest of the world, but I don’t want to know.
Mr Tay let us go out of the class today, and it was the first time he ever had a maths lesson out of class. Ms Tan looked slightly amused as we trooped out of the class, and I bet the people in 2S were amused too. Well who could blame them. Had meeting. Was briefed on the Nationals for a long time before going for training.
Our class has the dance competition tomorrow. Regardless of the conflict that I heard they had, I hope they do well. Really. They deserve to, after the effort and teamwork put in to pull it off. Yeah I hope they have that enthusiastic spirit they had while trying to secure a place in the finals. I know they can do it.
About stresquared, I repeat my stand. I did not disagree with the idea of playing, but neither did I agree. I am and will remain a neutral party to the end. I will most probably go along with the choice everyone has made, provided we are granted the permission. I just want to make my position clear. I will not play if 1) I do not feel that I can perform up to the required standard, 2) There are reasons which lead to me being unwilling/unable to play. Reasons which I may or may not feel inclined to share. Whether I play or not, may end up as an undetermined factor, but for right now, I think I will be. I hope this is relatively clear, and I apologize for my tone now, as I am currently not in the best of moods.[LINE] [You were gullible enough to think that I have already forgiven and forgotten. Let me update you. I do not forgive. Neither do I forget.Never.]
Today was quite a slack day, because basically there wasn't very much to do. Went to the science lab where Jolene stole several wooden splints (which you are not supposed to).Did some stupid experiment. It’s all not very interesting at all. As much as I like acids, I don’t like testing them, and all those in the lab are all extremely diluted. But some do have a certain level of acidity. I remember I touched the diluted hydrochloric acid, and because I had this slight cut, it burned like crazy. Okay, maybe it didn’t hurt that much, but it just stung. It was nice in a way. Maybe this is just self-sadism.
During English, did more of the song. I realize that I feel very strongly about my own opinions. Normally, I seem like some brainless idiot who doesn’t have a mind of my own (or so Christine says anyway), but thankfully, I’m not as shallow as that. It’s just that I do not air my opinions freely everywhere I go. I know that some people do not appreciate my comments. When I am with a considerably big group of people, I tend to keep my views to myself, unless asked for, or unless I think the idea proposed is one that is completely stupid and not going to work out. And when I voice it out, I tend to feel really strongly for it, and because of this reason, I don’t work well with people. I cannot keep myself on good terms with everyone. I’m just not the kind of person who can get along with everyone. After I propose an idea, I will try to make it work out, because I really feel that it would work. I try to think over what I say before I voice anything out. It’s always a difference in opinion that causes rifts in the project work that I do. Normally it involves me. I am very easily angered and I tend to give a lot of hotheaded comments to add oil to the fire. I can remember that practically all the project work I do, there are always arguments occurring between me and another person. I think I’m better now in secondary school. I hope.
Home Econs was quite a bit of a disaster. First like 2/3 of the class got punished for not bringing something or another. Then we did the actual cooking. Tried to fry the kway teow, and it was quite disastrous. Because it was deep frying, I just like dumped a lot of oil in the wok, and later on, the kway teow wouldn’t turn golden brown likeit was supposed it. We were doing it in a group, so everyone was like spreading out duties and stuff. Then Jessica was trying to fry the kway teow, only it was swimming in the oil, and looked pretty disgusting (thanks to the oil I added, I suppose). In the end, it looked like some lump of mush and they decided to do kway teow balls with it. Just rolled the thing into one ball. Nice to look at, but not that good to taste. I was like the first to taste it, and at first taste it didn’t taste too bad. Quite kway teow-ish. But afterward, I think it was the oil or something, and tasted very dry. It was weird – dry and oily at the same time. When it enters your mouth, you taste the oil but when you swallow, it makes your throat feel extremely dry. The ingredients didn’t taste too bad I suppose. Then they wanted to fry maggi mee. But I thought it would be better if we boiled it first, and turned out I was wrong again. There was a lot of oil still in the wok, and it wasn’t hot enough. We should have just put the entire thing in without boiling. My mistake. Anyways, I thought the Japanese noodle was the only quite okay one. But unfortunately, it was the most expensive. And it was amazing how different groups could come up with such different results after cooking, and following the same recipe.
Went to watch Mean Girls with Christine. I don’t know what the heck is everyone’s problem. At every turn it seems, there are people staring in a painfully obvious way at us. Freakin hell, it’s quite irritating. Somehow she doesn’t realize it though. You just so want to talk in the totally ganster-ish way and ask them what they’re looking at. Or better yet, just grab something off the table and just whack them hard in the stomach. That should teach them. I so want to glare back and flip them the finger (not that I ever would. Just a thought). I have never and will not do that. I am still considerably nice in the way that I only use words, not actions, because I really feel the action is a lot more crude and worse. Yes anyway, the movie was really short. But I guess it was entertaining for as long as it lasted. Some parts were abit corny and predictable. But overall it was fine. We wanted to watch Spiderman 2. But the showtime was too late for Christine and she couldn’t, so we had to settle with this. I am still up for Spiderman 2. So anybody want to go lol?[LINE] [It's almost amazing how things can change in such a short period of time.]
Okay I realize that my english has been getting from bad to worse.Maybe I was just so clouded by my mood that it seemed to block out my ability to converse and type in proper english.I think it gets quite irritating to read multiple entries that are chock full of singlish and slangs.Several I do not mind,but there has to be a limit somewhere.If I read entries that are filled with slangs,most of the time I get to irritated to finish reading.I'm not that much of a stickler,so much so that I cannot stand an ounce of singlish,but not too many please.I have made the mistake of using alot in the past entries,and since I get annoyed by reading such entries,I do not wish to subject my readers to such torture-in a literal sense.I shall try to type in more or less good english,although you may find the occasional singlish bits.Another thing I can't stand is people who sepll lkie tihs.Does it seem incomprehensible to you?Well this is another majorly annoying thing that I see around.Again,a few does not matter,but there are people whose spellings are apparently so bad that they cannot even write out a proper sentence.Maybe it's just their typing,but it does still get on my nerves.Maybe they should just consider using Micosoft Word or something like that,to spell-check their words.Hah and don't even get me started on people to wRiT3 |Ik3 +HIs.It is even worse if an entire sentence is written in this manner,because then it takes almost twice the time to actually read and register the content.It is an utter waste of time,and I think the time could be spent more productively doing something else.
I admit though,that I have done the above at least a few times.I'm trying not to,but sometimes I just use it to make a point.Actually,I don't know why I'm in such a grouchy mood now.My dad just bought me an mp3 player.Can anyone recommend any good mp3 download sites?
Oh yeah...I currently like the song Love,Me alot.Before she played it in class,I already like it loads.Only I didn't know what the title was.Finally found it out and like it even more.It's practically one of the few songs that moved me the first time I heard it,maybe because of the timing.I was very struck by the lyrics,and at that time,stupid as this may sound,it practically moved me to tears.Anyway,I was supposed to pass up the edited composition,which I didn't.I just had this second of rebelliousness and decided that I was not going to hand it in,or stay back to do it.I didn't even do it in the first place.Just realized I have a hell lot of work to do,including the 30cm protractor.[LINE] [As long as I don't wake up,this won't be a dream]
Haha I can’t believe my good mood held up. I am still in a relatively good mood now, and more good stuff has just been added to the list. Not that I shall care to elaborate. Haha oh yeah yesterday saw Michelle then I’m not sure if I wished her luck for her oral. Hope she breezed through it. Ahh… I just can’t stop smiling now. Call me crazy, but I am just in a super super good mood and you can’t ruin it for me. Ahahaha I am so nuts lahhs…
Had training. Was not too bad. But didn’t get to throw. The stupid weather was horrible and it didn’t stop raining, so we did a lot of drills and stuff like that. Mr Seem improvised a lot, like using the npcc logs to act as a barrier for the shotput, and stuff like that. So creative lahhs… Then training wasn’t very long, and then we all went to the canteen because there was something special that Amelia planned. It was some kind of Birthday thing for Amanda, complete with cake, and also some kind of pre-Nationals well wishes lol. Yeah funn… Then stayed back with Seon, Haiyun, and Liang Ming. Hung around the canteen and just talked a lot of nonsense. I think I was on a super-duper high. Made a lot of noise and became very unusually crazy. I say unusually because I’m normally the stupid one who sits at one side and smiles to herself. Today I was making a lot of noise and then Liang Ming had to accompany me, since my mum was giving her a lift.
On the way back, Amanda was messaging me, then something very funny happened. She was asking me if ‘Ling Ming’ was still with me, then I showed Liang Ming the message, and she was like ‘Ask her who is Ling Ming.’ And then in the next few messages, she still write Ling Ming. In the end, she replied ‘Liang Ming lor! U noe our chubby senior… Lol’ When I received the message, I was laughing my bloody head off. Showed it to Liang Ming(she didn’t get angry or offended), and then she was like ‘Luckily she never call me a hamster. Otherwise I will kill her.’ Or something to that extent. It was funny lah. And yah…it went on for awhile, and she sms-ed Amanda personally, which for some reason, Amanda could not receive(maybe she was just too paiseh and scared to reply lol). Was laughing like crazy all the way.
Oh yeah I have this stupid scar on my face. I don’t know where it came from, but it hurts when I brush against it by accident. So horrible. But I shall not let it ruin my mood. Haha so happy now, even though it’s like so late already. Ahahaha happiieee!(This is probably the 1st time you've seen/heard me in such a mood lol).[LINE] [Those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it.]
Okay I shall start with the Euro 2004. I specially stayed up to watch it, because it was a match I didn’t want to miss. I was supporting Greece, and because it was unclear who would walk away with the Cup, so all the more I was spurred to watch the match. First was the closing ceremony where Nelly Furtado performed the song ‘Forca’ or something like that. The MTV was just before that. Then the match started. The first half was not very interesting, and I think the overall game was quite defensive. A lot of players were used to mark the guy in possession of the ball, and the possession of the ball was always lost somewhere around mid-field. Oh yeah the Greek goalkeeper-Nikolopidis is so underrated. He’s not bad actually you know. And I like Charisteas and this other guy whose name I have forgotten(hey it’s not my fault their names are hard to spell and pronounce). When they did the corner, I was wondering if they would get it in, like in the match against the Cezch Republic, and they guy just headed it in. So maybe it was by a stroke of luck, but luck plays a part in everything doesn’t it? I think they deserved to win, because they put in a lot of effort and determination. Not to say that the Portugal team did not. They did play well too, and I think they were in a state of disbelief when they lost. Well I don’t really like Cristiano Ronaldo that much for some reason. Yes and although the whole match wasn’t super exciting, but I was very glad when Greece walked away with the cup. It was something not expected and stunned many. It is one of the biggest underdog stories, because nobody even believed that Greece could make it to the finals, much less win the Cup. But they knocked out all the good teams, and make it all the way much to the shock of everyone. The odds were 80 or 100 to 1. Hah but Greece won!!Lol
Anyways okay Monday I stoned at home because I had tuition and then nobody to go out with. Tuesday went back to school and it was i-shall-not-mention-who-y ou-are’s birthday. Apparently nobody wished her Happy Birthday or gave her any present, because nobody knew or they forgot and stuff like that. It was quite a bad day, or so I heard. Anyways [b]Happy Belated Birthday!! [/b]Had training, and we didn’t throw much because it rained halfway, so we did only weights and drills. The upper sec javelin people owe Mr Seem pizzas for some reason. Not very sure also. Yah then because my mum was not in Singapore, then Jade gave me a lift. Bahh… Liangming was accusing me of doing something I didn’t. So horrible…Haha but anyways we all had to squash together in the car. Yes..thanks for bringing me back.
Today’s Amanda’s Birthday. So [b]Happy Birthday [/b]to her too. Yup… was quite an okay day I suppose. Nothing much to talk about. Yes after school on the way out, I stepped into a pile of dog shit. You got that right. And you know why? I’m not going to blame the dog, since it is not the dog’s fault for needing to shit. Instead, the pathetic excuse of the owner who actually did the stupid thing of wrapping it in the newspaper and just leaving the thing there. My god… it just serves as a reminder how stupid people can actually get. Since that idiot has already bothered to put the thing in the newspaper, does it actually take much more effort to dump the thing in the nearest dustbin which is not more than 10 steps away? Would that person die from an asthma attack if he/she made the trouble to dump it away so that it would not inconvenience the people walking by? I wonder what those people have got for brains? Maybe they don’t. That would explain their utterly uncomprehendable stupidity. Pathetic turd. Those people just deserve to die. Alternatively, they could just leave it there. I mean, I wouldn’t step on it if it was just there, but because that pathetic bastard just put it in the newspaper, I just stepped on it. [b]Bastard.[/b] Scum of the Earth.
Well I shall not let that brainless fool spoil my mood. I have been in a good mood since yesterday, after school until now. A lot of good stuff has happened and no relatively bad stuff. Haha I am in such a good mood lahhs…hope tomorrow will just get better.[LINE] [You think nothing is impossible, but everything has its limits.An iron ore cannot be educated to become gold.]
Okay I am fucking pissed now.My pathetic brother just deleted all my fucking mp3 files off the bloody comp.I am so fucking pissed at his fucking stupidity.I can't even recover the fucking files.It took me a fucking long time to get all of them,and the best fucking part is that he didn't even ask my fucking opinion before he deleted them.Thanks man.I just feel like heaving the damn keyboard at him.Or maybe I should try taking a knife and stabbing something to satisfy my anger.I am in a very fucked up mood now and I will seriously screw the next turd who comes to piss me off.I can't even vent my anger or display it.ARGH fuck.I just feel like punching something using all my strength.who cares if it hurts.It will take my mind off this stupid fucking thing.I just want to fucking kill somebody.Bloody hell.I spent a freaking long time collecting all the files and he just fucking deletes it because the connection is slow for his game.I might actually feel better if he had used his damned brains and asked me beforehand.It's called basic courtesy,and then things wouldn't end up like this.You may of course think I'm over-reacting,and I won't stop you from thinking that way,since you are obviously entitled to your own opinions.I seriously couldn't care less about what you're thinking.You can think I'm childish and just throwing a stupid tantrum over nothing.Go ahead.I won't stop you,and I will not stop in my tracks to justify my actions to you.Stop reading if you want to.It's a free country.
Okay I shall try and get over it.It will take some time though,because I can't get over the damn fact that everything I've done for the past few months has just been deleted.It was the result of a few months' work god dammit.I had competition today.Did PB.Wasn't very good though.Got 5th for both open and under 17.The Tanglin people were good.Their throwing techniques are different from ours though.Theirs are more individualized,while ours all the same.But I feel their technique is abit weird.Of course,I think they find our technique weird.There was this girl,I don't know what her name is-her mumber tag is 932.Her throws were very nice.At least they had a very nice flight.Our competitors were all from Tanglin I think.940(I think her name was meiling or something like that),was also very good.She's in sec 1 and her PB is 21m.She got 3rd and she reminds me of Amelia lol.Very chatty and friendly and blah blah.Okay 932(really sorry but I don't know her name) got first,Amelia got 2nd and meiling got 3rd.It was the same for both the under-17 and open category.Oh yeah 937 was Amelia's SJ.Haha she looks very americanised.Yapps.
Ahh..before we went for the competition,me and Amelia were watching the Taekwando grading that was going on in the Sports Hall.Brings back memories lol.I remember last time I was so intimidated by the size of the sports hall.Going back there after like 5 years,the sports hall seems so horrible small.And I don't know why they always hold in in Toa Payoh Sports Hall.The place seemed to be so big last time.But now...can't believe I ever thought it was big.Then seeing those people do the grading,I started to have vague memories of how to do them.Haha but mostly forgotten already.
I am obsessed with My Immortal by Evanescence now.Reminds me of something and someone and some events that happened.I'm listening to it on repeat over and over again.The lyrics are really nice,and I can't get over how coincidental that I am starting to like it now-when stuff is happening.It so describes everything nicely.
I have about 3 hours to go before the final match of Euro 2004 starts.I am quite neutral towards both teams,but I support the underdogs.Haha go Greece!But Portugal seems to have a higher chance of winning.Greece just has a really tight defence,but they don't play like extremely extremely well.I think one of their strengths is the really good teamwork they have,so their deence is strong.Portugal will need to score very early in the match,if they want to win.The longer the match drags on,the more confidence the Greeks will have.Ahh..but half of me wants Greece to defy all odds and create history.Well...the results will be our later.[LINE] [Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.Impossible is not a fact.It's an opinion.Impossible is not a declaration.It's a dare.Impossible is potential.Impossible is temporary.[i][b]Impossible is nothing.[/b][/i]]~Adidas I like this quote alot.It's inspirational.
Today..err..can't remember much.Oh yeah had english for first period.We had to do some story thing,and I thought that our story was pretty good.About a girl with a dark past who has split personality.Interesting?I know.Haha me and christine were bombarding Jolene with ideas.We were just talking fast and spouting ideas,while she was trying to take it all down.Yeah then had history when I had no idea where the heck I left my workbook.I suppose it's at home,and I bought in on Monday.Is it my fault if he didn't come on Monday when he was supposed to?Okay fine I am just trying to push the blame away from me.Had maths and I was pretty pissed with the GSO.He just took out his own book and rattled questions off.Like whoa..pardon us if we can't keep up because you just gave us about a second to grab our books.I was damn irritated.I always get very pissed at such things.It just awakens this urge in me to hit and punch something.Seriously.And I couldn't stand the heck-care attitude.Like 'whether you get the questions or not is none of my problem.what matters is that I've already given them,so you can just go and rot away.'Yeah..damn irritating.
Had literature..which was pretty okay.I suppose.Went through Roll of Thunder,and I realize it's a lot harder to take notes,and because it is a way thicker book than Animal Farm,there will be lots of hard work done when taking down notes.It's more more itneresting though,and that's a plus point.But the downside is that Ms Lavina is becoming more strict.And yes,I think it's also very -argh-.Geog was practically the only okay lesson.The teacher is quite nice,and I can slack.But of course,I realized I forgot to bring the Geog books.I am resigned to fate.And I have arrived at the conclusion that my handwriting is horrible and is just going to stay that way.MT..er..went through the gonghan format.Was abit boring and stuff.Yeah then had training.
I think it was quite okay.We threw at the tennis courts area and I think I didn't do particularly badly.Was a short training.I have to mend my spikes by sunday.Is it possible?Ah well..I have to try anyway.Otherwise will have to use my masking taped spikes for competition.
Okay from events today and in the past,I have realized that I don't like losing.Yes...I hate being the weaker one.I get very irritated at myself when I lose or have my weaknesses very obviously shown.Yah okay I shall have to end soon because I want to watch Euro 2004!!I missed like 1/2 an hour already.I shall elaborate further on this next time.
And I think she cried.Could see signs of tears.Although she probably wouldn’t ever see this,but all I have to say is this ‘It’s over.Let it go and look ahead.’ Yes..I have an idea of what happened.Just leave it and don’t let it weigh you down…She was trying to be her normal self and cheerful and stuff.Well I hope she gets over it.Yarh..argh…don’t cry… I doubt the people reading will know who I'm talking about,since nobody who knows her reads this.Yeah...[LINE] [When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me]
